Saturday, September 27, 2008

September 27, 2008



Today has been a good day for our whole family! We had Riley's first birthday "perfectly purple park party" (say that five times fast!) this morning and it was a hit! She had such a great time playing with all her friends, she completely dug into the frosting on the cupcake, and she got some wonderful presents that she is playing with right now as I am typing. (her new elmo phone, and purse) Thank you to all that came...you made her day so special to all of us!

Bree is doing pretty wonderful today too! She started 'feeds' (breastmilk) yesterday. She gets one CC every six hours, and she has been tolerating them well. They check her stomach after every time and they are getting minimal residual back, which is what they want to be seeing. She is on 21% oxygen, which is almost room air! She has a brain ultrasound on monday to check her brain bleeds.

We stopped in and saw Bree today because we had to take my cousin to the airport. (the hospital is like ten minutes away from there) She does have to have a blood transfusion today, but it has been over a week since she has had one! For a while there it was every other day she was getting them.

We are so proud of her, and for how strong she is...she amazes and inspires me on a daily basis. I feel so blessed to be her Mama, and I am sure Adam feels the same way. Both of our girls are such a blessing to us...I love my two beautiful little girls!

Friday, September 26, 2008

September 26, 2008


Happy Birthday to Adam!! This is one of the few pictures we have of him smiling...so I figured I would share it with everyone else. He is the big 22, and we plan on relaxing at the house for his birthday. Depending on how I am feeling we might go out to a movie later tonight, but it all hinges on me and my 'issues'. We both want to see the movie "Eagle Eye"....it looks really interesting.
Bree is "good" in the words of the nurse, Cheryl, I talked to this morning. That's pretty much all she said. Her night nurse, Patricia, mentioned that she had had the most stable night she has had since being there, and that they took a blood gas at 5:00 am and it was "good" as well. She has no tests or procedures scheduled for today so we are thankful that today is a good day!
Hope this finds everyone happy, healthy and in love with life!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

September 25, 2008

Happy first birthday to our oldest daughter Riley!! She got to start the day in her pj's and got to open presents soon after everyone got up for the day...She didn't quite get the concept of opening the gifts, but Adam helped her along with making it to where she could rip the paper easily. She loves her new elmo guitar...and isn't quite sure of the TMX elmo, but is getting used to it. As usual, books are a big hit with her and she got plenty of those between everyone. I am looking forward to her party on Saturday...it will be great to celebrate with friends and family!


Bree is doing very well today. Her official report was back from her brain scan on monday and there is no increase in the stage of her brain bleed, but no decrease either. However, they did note that there was a clot (a scab) where the old bleeding was, so it is not actively bleeding. There is no evidence of new brain bleeds either! God is good!! I hope and pray that she has no more bleeds and her body is able to reabsorb the residual blood so that she can start going down in stages of the brain bleeds. Thank you for all your prayers as well!


Today was the first day we got to see her open her eyes. :) Her eyes don't really have color to them that I could see, but it was only for a few minutes that she was opening her eyes. Apparently she's been opening her eyes for about two weeks already, we just happened to not be there when she did have them open.
I had a bit of a mishap when we were at the hospital today so we are going to take it easy tonight. For some reason, I almost passed out while we were at the hospital. Even after eating, and drinking, and resting a bit I still feel light headed. :( So today is going to be a resting day for me...
Hope this finds everyone happy healthy and in love with life!

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

September 24, 2008


Good afternoon everyone!

Bree is doing good today. We took Riley to see Bree for the first time and she did well. She peeked into the isolette and then put her hand nicely on the isolette...that's about all there was to it. With her age, I was happy she didn't scream and then bang on the isolette. All the nurses thought Riley was the cutest thing ever...and of course she loved all the attention.


Bree still has not had to be on her photo therapy lights for about a week, which means that her body has maintained it's bilirubin levels on it's own. They were able to lower her ventilator settings, so it may be soon they will try again to switch her to the regular ventilator. They put a tube down her throat into her stomach to try and start feeding her, but they are going to hold off because they were able to pull bile up out of her stomach.

In other good news, she is able to maintain her body tempature a little bit on her own. Her isolette is covered and maintained at 32 degrees celcius and she is maintaining her body tempature at 36.2 degrees celcius. Other than that, nothing new to report on Bree...

Tomorrow is Riley's first birthday...we can't believe time has flown by so fast!
Here's a picture from when she was first born...she has grown so much in a year!

Hope this finds everyone happy, healthy and in love with life!

Love
Adam, Tasha, Riley and Bree

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

September 23, 2008

Good morning all!

The nurse we had last night didn't give too much of an update...just that she pooped and peed great last night! She did have one not so great blood gas last night, but they did not change any settings.
Once again, no news is good news...

Hope this finds everyone happy, healthy and in love with life!

Monday, September 22, 2008

September 22, 2008

Good morning all,

Bree had a good night last night...she now has her PCVC line in. This is an i.v. that goes into her left arm and is threaded through her arm into her chest cavity. It allows for better medication to be given with less of a risk of infection. So, since she has that in, her umbilical i.v.'s are taken out.

She is on 21% oxygen this morning, which is almost room air! Yay for Bree! She did lose a little bit of weight this time when they weighed her, but some of it could be water weight or something else.

We are just about to leave to go see her this morning so this update is a little short!

Hope this finds everyone happy, healthy and in love with life!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

"The Story"

So I have had quite a few people ask me about the story of what transpired before Bree’s birth. I figure that I would take the time to tell it for everyone. On Wednesday the 10th, Adam, Riley and I had been out looking at houses for a good part of the day so I hadn’t been drinking the usual amount of water. When we got home that night I noticed I was having what felt like Braxton Hicks contractions, but they were only on the right side of my belly, which is where Bree was. I just attributed it to being dehydrated and wasn’t too worried since they were only on one side of my belly. They continued off and on until we went to bed for the night, which is when I started timing them. They were about seven minutes apart, but they weren’t too painful. Last time I was pregnant, and had gone in with similar symptoms I was told to not come in until they were painful enough that you couldn’t talk normally through them. They were not that painful, so I put a pillow behind my back to help with some of the discomfort and got settled into bed.

Adam reached over to touch my leg and say “good night” when all of a sudden I felt a gush of fluid come out. I hollered at Adam to get me a towel and he jumped right up and got one. I immediately sat on it to avoid getting it on the bed and checked to see what it was. Unfortunately it was a massive amount of blood so I told Adam to go get Riley ready and that we were going to the hospital. The bleeding wasn’t stopping, so Adam and I contemplated calling an ambulance, but decided against it because in our previous experience with Riley and her RSV, they take a really long time to actually get you into the ambulance. First they call the base firefighters to come look at you, and then they call an ambulance if they decide you need it. We didn’t have that much time so Adam rushed to get Riley ready and in the car.

I was still sitting on the bed, on the towel, and I realized that I needed to get up and change my pants, and put on a pad to help with the bleeding. I stood up and started to ‘waddle’ to the bathroom with the towel between my legs. About halfway to the bathroom I started to feel something large sliding out of me. I started to panic and yelled for Adam. When I went to go sit down on the toilet, a clot about four inches across and round (the size of a tea plate) fell onto the ground. I panicked and almost started crying. Adam had rushed into the bathroom and I showed him what had happened. He encouraged me to hurry up and get dressed so we could get to the hospital as soon as possible. I got cleaned up, and dressed and got into the car. At this point the “Braxton Hicks” contractions were starting to get painful and I was pretty sure that there were more than Braxton Hicks contractions.

Adam was speeding to the hospital as fast as he could, and about halfway there the contractions were getting more painful. With every contraction there was a small gush of blood, but there was one contraction that was bigger than the rest and there was a giant gush of blood. At the same time I started to feel light headed, overly hot, and my ears started ringing. These are signs that I am going to pass out, and I knew that so I started to panic. I was worried that I would pass out and fall on Adam, or fall forward and hit my head on the dashboard. Adam was helping to calm me down, and I got my head laying on the door of the car, right in the path of the cool, blowing air conditioning. I don’t think I passed out, however, I don’t always know if I do or don’t because I always lay down and close my eyes and rest when I start to feel that way. After about five minutes of laying in the ac air I felt well enough to sit up partway. We rushed to the hospital and pulled up right by the emergency room doors.

Adam rushed in to ask for a stretcher for me, since sitting up wasn’t a good idea due to my passing out. Can you believe it…they didn’t have any! So this guy comes out with a wheel chair, and I climb into it. As he was pushing me in, he asked me if I was registered with the hospital. I replied to him, while gritting my teeth through a contraction, that yes, I was registered and that I had had my daughter there a year ago. He says “Well let’s check anyways”. At this point, I was in a lot of pain from my contraction and was very angry with this guy that was pushing me. Adam was off parking the car and getting Riley out so he was not there to help.

This wonderful gentleman that was pushing me wheeled me into the registration area and asked the lady behind the counter if he could just take me up to labor and delivery without me filling out paperwork. She did not know and had to go ask someone else. I was starting to feel light headed again so I rested my head in my hands. The wheelchair pusher asked if I was feeling okay, and I replied not so nicely, “No, I am bleeding, and I feel like I am going to pass out again, I already did once in the car”…his response to me was “Oh don’t do that on me, I am already not having a good night”. I couldn’t believe that he had said that! Finally, we got the okay to go up to labor and delivery.

Once we got up into the labor and delivery triage area and they got me onto a bed. They rushed to find Bree’s heartbeat with their monitors. They got a heartbeat that was about 94 (mind you Bree’s normal heart rate was in the 150’s) and I was repeatedly asking them if that was her heartbeat or if it was mine. They took my pulse and discovered that my pulse was about 54, so the heartbeat we were hearing was hers.

In the midst of all this, Adam was sitting with Riley who was crying and wanting me, the nurses were asking me questions, and I was bleeding and passing clots while they were stripping my clothes off, and putting on all the monitors. They were also trying to get an IV into me because of how much fluid I was losing, which was not working due to my low blood pressure. I was signing forms for an emergency c-section, and at the same time they informed Adam that Riley could not be in the triage area and they encouraged him to find someone to watch Riley for us. He stepped out with Riley while they continued to work on me.

It only took twelve minutes in the triage area before they wheeled me back into the OR. The anesthesiologist that was there introduced himself, and proceeded to get a second IV into me. I already had one in my right arm, and he put one into my left. He told the nurse to call and get them to bring up some blood for me because I was going to need a transfusion. I started to get scared. I realized that since I was already in the OR and Adam was out in the hallway with Riley that I was not going to see him before the surgery. I asked the nurse to go and tell him that I loved him. She was very nice and did so for me.

They brought in an ultrasound machine and tech to see what was happening with Bree. He started scanning, and about the same time Dr. Folkestad showed up. He came and said hi to me and explained that we were in a scary situation here. They were going to look with the ultrasound to see what was happening, and if I did indeed need an emergency c-section he was going to make a quick call to a neonatologist before he got started so that they would be there when the baby was born. He quickly checked my cervix to see if my body was going into labor or just reacting to the abruption and he discovered that I was already 3 centimeters dilated and 85% effaced. On the ultrasound they were able to see the placenta abrupting, so Dr. Folkestad left to go make the necessary phone calls. My contractions were not stopping by now, which were very painful, but the same nurse that had gone out and talked to Adam for me was allowing me to squeeze her hand.

They put in a catheter, washed up my belly with iodine (which doesn’t feel very good…very scratchy, like rough sandpaper), and put all the sheets up for the c-section. They changed from the oxygen mask I had on, to a different one for the anesthesia. For some reason, maybe to line up my windpipe, they had to put pressure on my throat while I was breathing into the new mask. It felt like they were choking me and cutting off my breathing, but they kept encouraging me to take deep breaths…so I tried my best.

That is the last thing that I remember.

When I came to, a nurse was with me in a new room. I am quite hazy on all the details, but I remember looking over and seeing that I was receiving blood. Adam came in soon after I awoke and told me Bree was okay. I am told that the first thing I told Adam was that I didn’t need a new ring. He was confused and asked me what I meant…. I insisted that he didn’t have to buy me a new ring because of the birthstone. Finally he got what I was saying…I have a ring that he gave me when Riley was born with her birthstone in it. Now, both of our girls are in the month of September so I didn’t need a new ring. I am not sure why that was so important for me to tell him that at that time, but then again anesthesia does odd things to a person.

The neonatologist then came in and updated me on Bree. She was being life flighted to Phoenix Children’s Hospital, but they had been able to stabilize her before she left. He explained a few details to me, then wished me a speedy recovery and promised to stop by in the next few days to talk more with me when I was more awake. Joel and Kristina came in and asked how I was feeling and we talked for a while. Once again, the silly things I say on anesthesia came into play. Because it was an emergency c-section, and due to the situation, they had to cut my uterus vertically. I joked with Joel and Kristina that I now had a cross inside me….

Overall, it was a time in my life, (and Adam’s) which I am sure either of us will be soon to forget. Scary as it was, it was necessary and I am glad that our little girl is alive, and is such a little fighter. She is our littlest blessing, and one of our greatest. We love both of our girls so dearly and we look forward to watching them grow and learn together over the coming years.

Update on "the mama"

Good morning again,

I just wanted to let everyone know how my healing is coming along...slowly but surely is the case here. I went in on Thursday to get my staples taken out and I was told that it would have to wait. I have a pocket of fluid built up behind my incision that they are worried might be infected. It is also causing quite a bit of swelling and that is why I could not have the staples taken out. If they took them out and the swelling got too bad it would split open my incision...ouch! So, they started me on an antibiotic, and the staples are staying in until Monday. It is quite uncomfortable, but I am making do...life still goes on and things still need to be done.

Hope this finds everyone happy, healthy, and in love with life!

September 21, 2008

Good morning all...

Bree had a really rough night last night. Yesterday they were adjusting her settings on her ventilator to help expand her lungs a little bit more because they had gotten an x ray back that showed her lungs were not expanding enough. Last night, she dropped her heart rate dangerously low, and all of her sats (her oxygen levels, blood pressure, and all that other stuff) twice in twenty minutes. So they ordered another x ray and saw that they were expanding her lungs too much and that was causing her to be stressed and drop all of her levels. They had thought that they might have caused one of her lungs to collapse, but luckily that was not the case. They have adjusted the settings back to what they were before they were messing with them, and she seems to be resting comfortably.

Also, her blood levels have been low as of last night so she will probably be receiving a transfusion of blood today. Her sugar levels in her blood have been high too...so overall she did not have a good night. Let's all hope and pray that she has a better day today.

Hope this finds everyone happy healthy and in love with life!

Love
Adam, Tasha and Riley